.o.t.y. no .o.t.m.!

it's so easy to say and give all away
it's so easy not to care, not to stay
there's no real reason to cry the world away
when all you gotta do is restrain...
you chase dreams, you want a highlife
but in the chase come errors and you're stuck with a high life
a narcotic nausea that follows you wherever
and causes you to bleed your eyes out forever
i don't have the right to pass on the rite
but i know i've been chosen
to choose my own way to write
but i'm broken...
my wrists feel like strangling my life out of me
and my heart keeps on pumping
for the kid that never really got to live
he's still kicking and screaming
it's for the one deep inside that i struggle
it's for the fight that i can never really win in the end
it's all these feelings i juggle
that never seem to blend...
you know how it is, you've hit walls before
a never ending chase, but you know that your hardcore
you know you can bottle it inside and you know you'll survive...
it's not about the props anymore, it's just about life
it's not the game anymore, it's just the pain and the gain
it's not the coming on top anymore, it's the strife
and it's all about knowing nothing was in vain...
never hesitated before, so i wont stop to rest
even though it all collapses daily and it's all just a jest
but i know what i want and i won't stop for suckers
so have a nice trip, see you motherfuckers!

get your fucking high life, i'll stay suburban forever
'cause there's no place to call home in the middle of nowhere
never move on, i care too much about people to lie
but i'd rather keep you in suffering than just let you die...

[you're looking in all the wrong places]